Prayer Break

This is my favorite and most moving scripture, and one I certainly need to read and meditate on every day.

The Lord is My Shepard

A psalm of David.

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me besides the still waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
 Surely goodness and mercy will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

-Psalm23

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Song of the Day: I Just Want to be Your Everything

 

I’m dedicating this song to my husband.

I remember being a little girl and, during those nice family nights, mom and dad sometimes would both be in a great mood and they’d start dancing to songs that reminded them of their teenage-love years. (They’ve been together since they were 16 years-old.) Of course, my sisters and I would laugh; but it was so comforting to see mom and dad smiling, dancing, showing how much they love each other, and reminiscing over their teenage years.

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One day when Megan is older, she’s going to be in the spot I was and be that little girl smiling and laughing as her parents dance to a love song.

Question of the day: What do you enjoy about getting older?

There are so many negatives related to aging, everything ranging from our physical appearance to our general health status is negatively impacted by aging. I think it’s good to find something positive regarding getting older, and embrace it among the sea of negatives that are out there.

I’m 35-years old. (Ouch, that honestly stings to say, because wow, I’m really getting seasoned to say the least. And “35” is a pretty high number. Oh wait, I’m supposed to be discussing the positive side of aging.)

So, only recently have I realized that I truly get better with age in many ways. I can finally understand what Oprah meant when she said, “Life begins at 40.” I was about 15-years old when I heard her say that (I’ve been an Oprah fan for a long time), and I could never understand where she was coming from. I truly thought it was something women said just to make themselves feel better about getting older.  Of course I also thought I knew everything at that age.

Now that I’m 35 (ouch, am I really this old?), I can truly say that I get better with age because:

  • I’m very satisfied with the many things I painfully obsessed over in my teens, 20’s, and even early 30’s. Things such as hair length, hair type, weight (I was either too thin or too heavy),  complexion or skin tone, my hands, my knees, my feet, you name it, there would be some point that I would wish I looked “better” in a particular area. I realize how insignificant those things are in the grand scheme of LIFE despite the emphasis that society places on them. Those things do not contribute to what’s most important in life: Health, strong sense of self, strong spirituality, health, and loving, healthy relationships.
  • I’m okay with being quiet and introverted and realize that I’m never going to change, and why should I have to? I used to desperately wish I could be the popular, social butterfly who loves to party. I’m actually a bit of a wall flower, and that’s really okay. I can make my impact in other ways besides being the life of the party.
  • Becoming a wife and mother, and experiencing, living, and growing in these roles are gifts that make aging a worthwhile treasure .

Art credits: “Butterfly” by Michael Wallace.

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What about you?

A Mother’s Spirit

A Mother's Love by Kolonji

I’m realizing I had a void in my life before becoming a mom and that’s partly why I was so drawn to working with kids. Now, I’m like a different person when it comes to other people’s kids. I’m somewhat selfish now, in the sense that I realize how micro my time and life is, and I want all my nurturing and patience to go to my kids/family kids.

That’s actually why I knew it was time to try and have my own, because I kept getting heartbroken and sickened with stress from other people’s abused, neglected, traumatized kids that came into my life. I remember being pregnant and still crying over all these kids I couldn’t help. I always wondered why I would cross paths with such hurting and suffering children, yet I wouldn’t be able to help them out of their situation. It felt like torture, and I knew I wouldn’t be able to have my own child if I didn’t step back for a while.

Now that I have my own little angel, I’m like, wow, I owe everything to her. I can’t let other parents’ mistakes tear me down and I bring that home to my child. I don’t see how youth workers and teachers with their own children not bring that stuff home. I accept the fact that I have a very obsessive, high strung personality and if it’s anything I can’t solve or conquer it runs me crazy(er) and eats me alive. I don’t see how teachers/counselors/youth workers of troubled children turn it all off when it’s time to deal with their own kids.

I’m finally so at peace. I don’t feel like I failed all those other kids in past. The group of 5th grade, inner city, troubled students where I had to quit, though I loved them (probably too much), since having my own child I no longer feel like I failed them or any other kids I couldn’t help. I must have tried so hard, too hard, because I had a void because I wasn’t a mom. It’s amazing how you can look back and put the pieces of the puzzle together. I would like to use my love for education in a different way, not just with kids. I actually enjoyed working with elderly people, to my surprise. I learned so much about living life, growing old, and death.
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Art Credit: I believe it is called “A Mother’s Love by Kolonji.”
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10 things I want to say to my daughter

1)You’re currently 13 months old!

2)You’re not walking on your own yet, but you love to walk while holding our hands and holding onto furniture.

3)You love to push small boxes, chairs, and anything with wheels around the house.

4)We went to the Strawberry Festival this past weekend. When I took you out of the stroller you decided you wanted to push the stroller and you didn’t want me to pick you back up.

5)Your absolute most favorite food in the world is…..RED GRAPES!! You love love love them.

6)You like music, and you like to do baby dances. You also really like the final Jeopardy music and will stop what you’re doing to look at the TV.

7)When you get older, I know that you will like music from the 1950’s, 60’s, and 70’s, because that is your momma’s favorite music; so anytime I listen to it with kids in the family, they end up liking, no LOVING those old songs.

8)You are such a mini-me with all of your talking and feistyness. Lately you’ve been pointing your fingers, while standing in your crib and giving some very serious baby talk. I call you the professa (professor). Your dad calls you Preacher Megan when you do that. We’ve got to get this on video.

9) You like to take books and pretend you are reading! Seems like you will take after your dad in this regard and read lots of books on your own when you get older.

10)It’s been an amazing journey with you. May God continue to have mercy on us and allow us to all have a beautiful future together. 

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**Hugs & Kisses**

Ideas for Meg’s First Birthday Party

At first, after seeing the expenses & stress from other parents planning their kids’ parties, my husband & I agreed that we would just keep it really simple and have more like a ‘get together’ just for the kids. I was still going to do my themes though. But my husband started calling people saying “Megan’s party.” I was like, okaaaaaay, so are you giving me the green light to basically turn this into a partay and ‘be me & do what I do.” I tend to get really deep, okay obsessive, over things like this. I truly love coming up with ideas & planning & creating things.

I have started planning a little late and may not be able to pull everything off this year.

Theme: Butterfly

Similar to those type of butterflies in above photo. Photo Credit: http://www.funny-wedding-ideas.com

Invitations: ????

Food/Menu: ????

Cake vs Cupcakes: I prefer cupcakes for her first Bday. Okay edit: My husband just said we should have a mini cake; will do. Cupcakes with butterflies on top:

Photo Credit: http://cupcakespictures.com

Goodie Bags/Education for the kids: I guess candy and something educational about butterflies. I know most people don’t consider incorporating academics into a party, but I think it will show the kids how learning can & should be fun and applicable to their everyday lives. If I had more planning time, I’d have the kids either do a theme-related (art) activity before the party (& have it nicely displayed at the party) or have them do an activity or art during the party.

Display Table: Flowers & 2 Photobooks. The first book is the Pregnancy & Newborn photo book I made. I’m working on the 2nd book now, which is basically a review of her first year: First Holidays, First time in Church, First time at the Pier etc… & of course my other babies are always in my photo books a lot. I think it will be cool for the adults to  flip through these books. It can kind of be a daunting task because I try to make sure all of the kids are equally represented in the books. And plus I don’t want to leave out any of the close adults in her life either so it’s a lot of work trying to include everyone.

Balloons: Let’s not forget balloons.

Outfits: Probably this:

photo credit: http://www.etsy.com/shop/SherbetBaby